As we look at movies, books and all art forms, we will come one day to look back at blog posts. They are unedited scripts; society’s laymen's version of history. This version is not written by only the winners, but by all of us.
These words today are three hours in the writing and counting. I avoid what I am feeling now. It’s not pretty. I know how this works. What is in my line of sight is a reflection of some inner orchestration. It is really not the other way around.
So what am I hearing and seeing that I’d rather not? Polarity, dissention, anger, pain and even blood. These songs and words, stories and comments are uncomfortable. This is not a world I want to look at.
Yet there it is; and there, and there and there. My world demands I notice these replicating bits of misery. It is time I pay attention.
So I do. It is a challenge. I longingly glance back at my rose colored glasses. They seem to ask to be worn, but I am determined. They remain off. Let’s do this.
What I must do now is look within. What do I harbor that makes me so anxious and doomed? What internal truth am I avoiding? I cannot blame another; my life is mine alone. I know this.
The feelings are familiar. I’ve held them forever it seems; blamed family, lovers, bankers, illnesses and numerous others. Yet I see, (with so many of the old ones gone and replaced now with new ones), the familiar persists. I feel uncomfortable. Like an addict, I relive the cycle – happy, sad, angry, regret, repeat. This is our life’s cycle, awake or asleep it echoes.
We cannot escape this echo. It may sound different over here (on the awake side); yet it feels familiar. That’s because we create it that way. It is the only way to get the fix. We need that fix, desire that hit, and set it up for maximum effect. As with any addiction, it takes just a little bit more each time for the same effect to be felt.
What’s your emotional addiction? Is it anger? Self-pity? Sadness? Disappointment? What have you come to accept as a consequence of being you? What have you decided can’t be changed? Are these things you want to hold on to?
We have to move out of range of the echo, it is the only way. We are getting to the core now. In order to proceed we’ll do it as One. This means all parts included have been consciously chosen.
You see, as we unify a planet, we join together as a species and accept all components that make up the whole. In order for acceptance, there must be acknowledgement. These parts must be seen so that we can consciously choose.
This is where we are; full exposure. Your finest and most self-destructive traits are shouting, “look at me!”
It is why I’m noticing and not liking things today. They point out to me what I would rather avoid. It is my own addiction. After years and Quests and methods and meditation and loves and losses – still I avoid this. Still I hear myself blame. As with a heroin addiction, there is only one way to stop it completely. I must move out of range, beyond this echo. I must stop listening. I must give it up.
The good news is that it’s only an echo now. We know these are not true voices, but echoes. Echoes are like shadows; fleeting images of something as it passes through. Without the source, they dissipate.
Polarity’s echo will be felt until you move beyond the need to hear it and stop listening. It is a choice. Know that there is no source. There is no “other” to cause you to feel this pain, not really.
Discomfort is not a bad thing. Use it as a stimulus for action. Decide then to be comfortable.
Our addictions gave us the illusion of comfort. In truth, these compulsions are patterns of feeling and habits of emotion. They are not “right” or “wrong”, they are bits of you as you used to be.
You are awake now. You can instead choose again. This time, choose empowerment.
Empowerment looks right at that addictive emotion and says “no thanks”. Empowerment chooses instead to feel good.
We will walk into our new world without shadows or echoes; but with clear voices and brilliant lights ablaze. This was not meant to be easy. It was meant to be accomplished by only the fiercest and most steadfast Masters. The seductive allure of your addictions do not serve one such as you.
You have places to go and a world to take with you. Let’s get this party started.
We are the ones we’ve been waiting for.
With so much love,
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