“I blog about love and post you frequently. I AM in limbo nowadays. I feel ready to blossom and I need patience. I AM intuitive, but feel nothing NOW as I wait during this transition. “
Hi there. I wonder right off when you say you are an intuitive, but “you feel nothing NOW”. I suspect that this is misinterpretation. Your gift of intuition is not something you turn on and off, it is something that you ARE.
Perhaps what you are calling “nothing” is something you've never seen/felt before, and therefore label it “nothing”. There is no such thing as a void in creation, there is always something there. As associative beings, we look around for how to label and think about virtually everything that is going on.
This time we are in, this time of change and alteration and all things new, has no past you can associate with. This creates a feeling of “something missing”, which could be the feeling of “limbo” you describe in your question. We are in the process of creating different things unknown to us yet. Once we do, we'll understand what to call them and how to recognize them.
It is indeed an exciting time, yet a confusing one. There is nothing to “ground” to, or base our every day on. It is not so much patience you are in need of, but practice in the art of allowing. It is not something we've done very much of. As the bud feels “ready to blossom”, yet does not know which day it will bloom, there you are. You paint such a vivid picture with your words, there is no doubt that you are right there, ready to emerge!
Remain open and ready for all comers. The “next thing” is right there, unrecognized today but valid just the same. Your creative ability is not dormant, it is more vibrant than ever. It is your thought about it that has it in a seeming “holding pattern” of nothing. You create with every thought and word and action and emotion. Describe your current mood differently and then look for evidence. You will surprise yourself as you see near instant manifestation take place in your days!
Each moment has potential and is in fact fulfilled. Remaining in a pattern/habit of boredom or “waiting” creates only more of the same. Decide on active intention with every moment. As you grasp what is in front of you and guide it toward the next new thing in your life, you will feel the power of your intent! Allow your dreams and beliefs to manifest. They have no choice but to do so.
Believe in what is as yet unseen. It exists as surely as you do. There is no magic word or mantra, you will have to uncover the words and expectations that work for you. It sounds like you have a jump start on positive thinking; you already blog about love! All of your answers are found in your heart. Just allow yourself to feel them.
Question : “Do you think your off world friends will be visiting soon?”
Well, it depends on what you mean by “soon”. Yes, I expect a visit. It's happened before. Time is relative... We may think we've been waiting forever while for another civilization, it has been only moments. I trust that a visit will happen at the perfect “now” for all of us. ;)
Question : “For the last 3-4 years I've encountered what to all including myself is lack, yet within it I know I have all I need. We haven't lost our home, pets are fed, gas tank gets filled, refrigerator too, somewhere there's still that voice that tells me I must "Do" something to change the situation and every time I do or attempt to do, in order to get, it falls apart...
I have been personally challenged by an obsession for a man that could be my son! Sometimes I get entangled in wondering about possibilities but lately I've decided he's purpose is to distract me from my goal... Am I kidding myself??”
Wow, lots of questions here...
Lack is defined as: “the fact or condition of not having enough; shortage; deficiency – the fact or condition of not having any; complete absence.”
In your own words “I know I have all I need”. So either the definition of lack is not understood by you and “all”, or you are not being truthful. I suspect it is a misuse of the word, and perhaps what is perceived as “lack” is in fact an amount that does not meet your expectations.
You want more than enough. You are seeking comfort. What you have now isn't what you used to have or isn't what you'd hoped you would be enjoying at this point in your life. Here's the thing. As we move forward towards autonomy and sovereignty and responsibility and agape, it challenges us on every level. How we define the challenge will define how we feel. WE decided to change things and to do so, well, means change. This is change we have to own.
If you listened to a voice or feeling that told you you had to “do” something about getting rained on, you'd either open an umbrella or stand under an awning. You wouldn't stay there, dripping wet, saying “every time I DO something to get dry, it falls apart”. No, you'd get yourself protected or get wet. Not once did you think the responsibility for your dryness was anyone’s but yours, so you took care of it.
If you truly believed the responsibility for “doing something to change the situation (of lack)” was yours, then you would do it. Case closed. So, again, either you don't believe you are suffering any sort of lack or you don't believe it's your responsibility. Either way, the answer is to change your mind and look at your beliefs with wide open eyes. Be content out loud if you really are, or be clear on whose job it is to change it. Either way, act on your true inner beliefs and you will have a great deal more success.
As far as your young man is concerned, there is never “kidding”, as all imaginings are occurring, if not in this time-line, then in some parallel reality. All possibilities exist. Period. It is up to you whether or not you choose to experience them in this specific time-line, the one where you are also struggling with definitions of lack.
Again, how do you define yourself? Be clear, as your heart only speaks the truth. If there is any connection felt between you, age will not matter; you'll both sense it. Understand that you cannot know what is going on in his head, but you cannot imagine love. It exists and is easily recognizable. It sometimes shows up as a physical “spark”, sometimes as a warm knowing... but we all know how it feels. There is no wrong sort of love. There is only love. It is distracting yes, I guess, but really, it is the whole point. Everything else is the distraction.
He may or may not pursue the feelings in this scenario; yet that does not mean you are “kidding yourself”. It means that he chose something else. That says nothing about your desirability or obsession. It is merely a choice. Somewhere else he chose differently, and so did you. That is how it works. If that is his choice, then let it go. He cannot take anything from you, he is merely a reflection of what you are allowing yourself to feel.
In thinking about both questions, I'd like to offer this. Trust yourself. Love yourself. If things are falling apart or not working out, it is because all of your heart and enthusiasm was not present while you participated. Be clear and be honest and be forgiving and keep moving. Leave all judgment out of it. Forgive yourself and seek always your highest and best. As you approach any new day, do so in the direction of your heart. It knows. You are so much more than your current imaginings are allowing you to see. Thank you for asking.
“Still searching for self-expression. Still holding myself back. Am wondering why? What is the "spring-board"? How do I launch myself?”
Great question. We've all heard the “pat” answer of “follow your bliss”... In practical terms, that can be terrifying if you don't see that bliss linked to abundance in 3D. First decide who in your world/community/life right now supports your “self-expression”? Who backs you up and listens to your heart without offering opposition?
Once I was told, “find someone who will push on your rock”. Let's say you are standing in a corner, behind a huge boulder. You'd like to get it to the opposite corner of a very large room as quickly, painlessly and joyfully as possible. You imagine yourself doing it with grace and beauty, with surplus energy and passion. You look around the room and you see the most direct path is blocked with obstacles and people. You clearly cannot do this alone.
Here is where your rock pusher shows up. This person is a connection for you and someone who naturally and seamlessly pushes your rock. This person (or people) knows what you need to succeed. Now you need to listen and allow.
We weren't meant to find all the answers alone; we are here to recognize them when they show up! Sometimes, the “spring-board” is just having had enough of what doesn't feel genuine, doesn't feel like our purpose. It may be that you aren't done playing with the other roles in your life. As soon as you are, you will put on a new outfit and enter this new scene.
I find that the hardest things to let go of are habits, whether or not they sustain my new vision of myself. Frustration can become addicting. The idea of “going for it” can also hold doubt, for what if you go for it and its not all you dreamed of? What could be holding you back is not fear of failure but fear of success. There is a quote by Marianne Williamson:
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us...” It speaks to the recognition of truth. You've spent a very long time in doubt; that is another word for fear.
So, the launch pad could very well be this question, it could be the next billboard you read or sunset you watch. It could be a random comment you hear on the radio. As long as you hold the belief that there IS a moment when you will believe in yourself enough to launch, there will be. The trick is to hold it in your mind as a present tense moment, not something that is “out there”. You asked “when”? The timing is in your own heart and mind, for every moment, all that we really have, is NOW. Move towards it in whatever small way you are inspired to, but move no matter what. Even a tortoise reaches his destination, usually a with a whole lot more wisdom once he gets there than the hare. Below is a great video by Bashar: http://youtu.be/5TPOijYMuUo .
I am reminded of the navigation system in my car. If, on the way to my destination, I stop for something, she starts saying “Make a U turn, if possible!” She is clear on her destination. This is the clarity you will require, and then everything you do will be “self-expression”! It will be all that you demonstrate, and the only place you are headed.
“Recently, I've been paying more attention to my dreams at night. I've noticed lately that if during my peaceful happy dream, somehow, a fear thought comes to mind about how something might happen, then that something does invariably happen in my dream, reminding me that I'm the cause. Fear blocked out my otherwise happy dream. I can't help but make that connection to our "real" world, which is really a dream too.
Not sure if this is a question or just a comment, but if it's only possible that fear could suddenly stop for all of us, the Love (my happy dream) can shine through again.”
Thank you. This is such a nice illustration of creation. Fear is at the base of every perceived “negative” moment, and the fact that you see it in your sleeping dreams means that you are connecting the dots to your waking dream life. So, so cool.
You cannot love without condition if there is fear at any level. You said, “Fear blocked out my otherwise happy dream.” You have, in one sentence, described why we are (or can be) miserable. It is fear.
Stopping fear requires diligence and understanding. We are eternal bits of love and as such, indestructible. If we could remember that, then, as you’ve said again, “the Love (my happy dream) can shine through again.”
It truly is all love, all a happy dream. Before arriving we know this and can’t wait to get here! It is fear that changes things, belief that the temporary is out of control and potentially hurtful. Hurt only happens with permission. A sovereign being does not give permission to be hurt. A sovereign being is fearless.
Fear goes by many names – jealousy, pain, anxiety, anger, irritation, annoyance, and arrogance… each a different expression of what is not love. To have these feelings is human. To understand they are momentary, and then move beyond them to peace, is freedom. Freedom is another word for unconditional love. It sounds as if you have found the key.
"I don't feel I'll ever find love and will be alone for the rest of my life....how can I change this?"
This is voiced in different ways and times by many of us. I believe the answer is found in the way the question is stated. We create our life. Every aspect of it is influenced and brought forth by our feelings, which, if felt often enough, become hard wired into our brain and turn into thoughts, which if thought about frequently enough, feel like "truths", and thus seem impossible to change. It is chemistry and the process needn't be fully understood to change it.
It will take an unshakable belief to head off this process of creating "alone for the rest of my life". It will take falling in love with yourself without condition. It will take a new feeling, one of "I will find love", thought often enough until it becomes a belief. She or he could be anywhere! Don't go out unless you are dressed to meet the love of your life! Look everyone in the eyes, that is where we meet at the soul level. Do not hide your light or your love. How will she or he find you if you are hiding?
Our words are powerful and as we speak and write of our pain, it only continues. Speak, write and watch only what brings you to a place of "I feel lovable". The rest of us will notice and agree!
If you are looking for more specifics, there is this great book by Joe Dispenza called "Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself"; it is filled with tools to use to create the life you want.
You are perfect, right now. Feel it, believe it and you will see lots of things change. This is where we find love. In our very own hearts.
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