Marching along the green grass before me is the gaggle of geese, the lame one hopping and fluttering in their midst, while that huge white bird dives again and again into the water, beneath the hawk circling high overhead – it’s dinnertime on my last day here. It’s as if they’ve all shown up to say goodbye. Next week school begins. I will miss this beautiful lake, tucked in between the suburbs. Minnow buckets and fishing poles remind me from where I came. This is a part of me I’ll keep. We are being asked to let go. As I sit here I wonder if there is something else I should be doing, because frankly I don’t get it. The advent of school begins a four month countdown until 12.21.12. Four months! We’ve finished 2/3 of this pivotal year. Is it possible there is something I missed? It feels right in front of me, yet not. An hour has passed since I got to the lake today. How can that be? Did I fall asleep? I’m consistently tired, and yet there are times I can’t sleep at all. My internal motor turned on again today and now I am humming. There are sparkles of energy shooting up and down my limbs. I read about the necessity of chakra activations and third eye openings and I don’t connect with any of it. What’s happening for me is organic and without a name. I feel it yet I have no words to adequately define it. I cannot in good conscience tell you what you will experience or how. I can only tell you to trust that you will. These definitions and deadlines and processes we are reading about are all subjective. I’m coming to disbelieve in dates. Now, I have children and obligations so I must therefore pay attention to the calendar and the clock, but it is a challenge. As we move toward Oneness I find each definition and name more divisive than helpful. If this process is anything at all it is internal. I guess I am letting go – releasing my stranglehold on perfection and blame. That’s not to say it’s gone – lately I notice opinions in every corner of my psyche. It would seem my ego is not happy about the idea of moving on – she has filled my head with doubt and judgment. Homemade bread, peach cobbler and a rich stew fill my house with delicious aromas – I cook when I feel uncertain. Something about the smell and sight of freshly prepared food settles me. Perhaps I’m looking for home. This accelerated passage of time creates a sense of being late to the party. It’s illusory – there will come a moment of “no time” to make and “no other” to judge. I can feel this happening already. We chose this. When the energy of ascension or whatever you are calling it overwhelms you, remember this was a ride you stood in line a long time to get on. It’s an amazing trip, one you’ll never forget. This lake and these birds are part of the landscape and forever imprinted on my mind. I am so grateful for them. Another hour has passed. The birds here have settled in for the night and I will do the same soon. With all the symptoms, energies and changes – we are human; sparks of divinity poking at us from the inside, faster and faster now, just itching to be free. Maybe it’s not time that’s moving faster. Perhaps it’s us. We’ve waited for so long for this freedom to be ours and we can sense it getting closer. These symptoms are nothing more than us – straining at the bonds of density, pulling us up towards the light that we are. We are the ones we are waiting for.
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Cornstalks border my east and west, standing guard to this row of houses. Harvested a month ago, they are silent golden protectors, speaking only when the wind blows through. The coyotes keep their distance, but at night you can hear them howling; they are hunting. I am grateful for these cornstalk sentinels. The world looks different further south, and in so many ways it is. We spent the morning working in the front yard and left to get some lunch. When we drove back in, I noticed we’d left the garage door open and the lawn was strewn with power tools. You couldn’t do that in the suburbs. Well you could, but more than likely they’d be gone when you returned. We are in the heartland. Down here you grow things, hunt things and help people. The cows make strange noises at night; there is an occasional eerie wail. With the mass of stars overhead and this combination of animal calls, it’s as if we’ve entered another dimension. Yet I see no evidence of “Ascension Awareness” here. Life is straightforward. It includes work, raising kids and crops, and play; all good things. I feel so deeply human here. This is my race. I can’t deny feeling a bit out of place though. I have no internet access in this rural yard where I sit. For two days I’ve been unable to check in on what has become an important part of my daily life; my family of light workers. It’s been interesting. I feel, not quite like a fish out of water, but like the Ugly Duckling; accepted completely yet just a little bit different. We all pretend not to notice and I will move on soon enough. This sense of being removed somehow from people I love isn’t comfortable. I’ve had it my whole life, and believe it’s because this time, I’m here not just to experience humanity, but to help humanity. We all are. For those of us who’ve heard the call, our time has arrived. We are a bit removed because we’re always watching, waiting for the right moment. It’s as if we are now on high alert. This weekend, I am in a corn maze. It’s fun and I’m having a great time, but it’s time to find the exit. We have to support each other now. We are family. Each of us is love. For some unique reason we chose to light the way and the rest of our families are depending on us to do just that. The gifts that are yours are needed right now. You are perfect. You chose this time and this family. It is the one most suited for success. Consciously, we don’t speak of this, but on the soul level we all do. Your family and friends all know what you are doing here. You are lighting the way. There is need for your particular style of love; for your luminosity. Discomfort or awkward feelings are distractions and you knew they might show up. At the same time you realized that your light was necessary, and trumped everything else. You are a light bearer. You are here to light the way. In the story, the ugly duckling turns out to be a swan. Now the swan isn’t better than the duck, but different; her wings are huge and her neck is longer. She sees much further. Just like us. Our powerful wings are beating a path for the next pond. Only swans can see far enough to find the quickest route. That’s why the flock needs us. In order to make best use of our beautiful wings, we need to accept and love them – as is. We are the ones we’ve been waiting for. A solo fishing pole runs towards the lake, taking with it a sneaker clad little boy, holding on to a tackle box. He looks back often, smiling at an older guy who takes his time to catch up. It is a chilly morning. Dark clouds announce the coming rain and this fishing trip will either be a short one or a wet one. It’s not the weather that’s in that young boy’s head, it’s the fishing. Threatening weather, illness or discomfort stops many adventures. When young children are involved it’s different again. Through their eyes, the world becomes a playground. In “Yes Man”, Jim Carrey discovers what he’s been missing with “No”, and falls in love. It’s easy to say no. There are so many valid reasons – not enough time, not enough money, not enough guts, not enough knowledge. It all comes down to lack, which in this world is the physical expression of fear. I began saying yes in 2008, after seeing this movie. Eventually my children caught on and we ate a lot of pizza and ice cream for awhile. I joined some organizations I wouldn’t have normally. I began writing in earnest. I write this blog because 4 years ago I said yes. The anti-drug campaign in the schools around here is titled “Just Say No”. Once I remembered the Law of Attraction, I noticed the futility of that. A great way to attract anything is to surround it in a big red circle and include the word “NO!” What we resist persists. Life is supposed to be fun and we have forgotten. That little boy with his dad or uncle is making a memory; the rain is just mixed in with the story and was never the point. Both will pass quickly, making way for the next moment. Just say yes. Practice for our next moment. Ascension or The Shift or The End Times or the Event or whatever we call it, it’s a new adventure. How are we going to let go and fully experience this massive change if we can’t get out of the house? We’ve chained ourselves in imaginary bonds of fear. This was a deliberate act, perpetrated by those who would enslave us. We are not slaves, we are light workers. Our light dissolves these invisible chains, our love sets us free. Realize in every moment the power you hold. Look up! We are all around you, waiting to meet your gaze. One of us has to begin; it may as well be you. Even going to the grocery store can be a blast when the trip includes some love. That’s the whole point! We are not just background and scenery while you “get your work done”. We are your work! Look around, smile, and connect. It’s incredible how that lifts you up. Say yes, and watch your world conspire to create more for you to love. Our purpose is expansion. We are here to evolve. We came to love. It starts with yes. We are the ones we’ve been waiting for. Their beaks buried in the damp lake grass, the gaggle of geese eat, oblivious. All but one. He stands removed, head up, ever vigilant, taking in everything. Three quiet honks and the group stops grazing and moves on, crossing the sidewalk. They move as One. Only when all are safely across does this lone goose stretch his neck down to nibble the grass. As he does, another head pops up to take his place; the Guardians. Nature offers her own definition of this term that seems to be cropping up lately. Who are all the players in these End Times? There are whistle blowers, walk – ins, Galactics, Celestials, starseeds, the Resistance and the Guardians. Lots of labels, 7 billion people, one voice. Names separate us and yet we seem to need them in this level of density; they help my brain to organize information. If I have a sore toe, it matters what type of doctor I consult – a podiatrist or a psychiatrist. Although both may help me, only one of them will know what to do with my toe. We are light workers, here to usher in the next era – the one that comes after these “end times”. Why are we interested? What propels us to share or meditate or march or speak? Somewhere deep within you’ve heard the call, and like the quiet honks here this morning, it has spurred movement. It is time and you know it. We are being asked to do what we planned, nothing more or less. Each of us has a part and it’s all necessary for this group to move on. I like the word “Guardian” because it implies protection for the benefit of the whole; wisdom. This planet is destined for ascension and we are here now to see that she does just that. I think it’s a mistake to view all these players as “others”. These roles are not outside of us, they are us – Moms, sisters, Dads, uncles, starseeds, whistle blowers, guardians. We’re all here, right on time. The real wonder and amazing part of this show is us. We are the magic, we hold the key. There is no accident that we’ve found each other here, online. It’s the closest humanity can get to non verbal, non local communication. Have you had that experience where you read something and it goes right through you? That is instant recognition. Pay attention to the writer. This is someone you know. As One we move across the sidewalk – some of us quietly honking, some of us distracted, some of us leading and the rest following. From a distance we are a single moving entity. Unity. From a distance, you cannot distinguish the honkers from the followers. The label doesn’t matter, what matters is the One. I’m beginning to appreciate our Oneness. It’s fascinating to listen to and contemplate each of our labels, yet that’s not truth, not really. Truth is unity. We are One. You are absolutely perfect and in just the right place. As you negotiate traffic and lunch, you’re moving us forward. I bet if we let go of all doubt about the importance of our singular lives, we’d catapult ourselves ahead. That lame goose I mentioned two days ago has now discovered his wings. Today he flies ahead and waits patiently for the rest of the gang to catch up. They are all now clipping along. I had to really look to locate this straggler. He got over himself and figured out what he was there for. He came to fly. So did you. Your wings are already in place. It is time to remember how they work. You will, and we are all here to help make sure that you do. We are the ones we’ve been waiting for. That old fisherman just headed down to the lake again, pole and bucket in hand. It’s so quiet here. I can hear the hollow sound from his bucket when he first sets it down on the ground. I like that. There’s a comfort in the ordinary. I grew up far from this tiny lake, surrounded by water. Fish and clams and minnows and fisherman were my everyday. This familiar scene runs very deep and soothes me somehow. Little else does right now. I feel as if I am at a masquerade ball. We are dressing up in costume for business as usual, while beneath these masks it is anything but. We are unrecognizable. Nothing is at it seems. A hawk circling high overhead, just swooped down low, a few feet in front of my eyes – as if on command. An omen. We are entering powerful times. Every cell of my body feels it. I couldn’t sleep last night. My “Mom” mask may be buying school supplies, but my light worker self can barely contain her excitement. It’s pretty wild to be contemplating the price of notebooks while simultaneously saving the world. We are super heroes in disguise – We look like regular people, yet beneath these calm exteriors lie powerful forces. Don’t you feel like that? It’s like every fantasy rolled into one. There’s good guys fighting corruption, space ships, natural disasters, help from the heavens and everlasting love. It’s all here and yet, while it goes on, we pay our bills, mow our lawns and talk about the weather. We have families to raise, money to earn and a planet to save. Not just anyone could do this you know. It takes one powerful being to pull off such a stunt. Our masks are so well constructed the vast majority of the population will never even know they exist. We are that good. We were chosen because of our ability, determination and power. We are the light – one force of absolute love here to lift a world out of darkness and propel her into a brilliant new dimension. Our voice gets stronger all the time. You could hear the start of this new song with the OWS (Occupy Wall Street) movement. It continues. Just listen to what many of us, speaking as One, can do (see video below). We are exquisite. Our efforts to topple corrupt regimes and institutions will set us free. All of us are discovering we have a voice, and our song just keeps getting louder, our harmony perfect. We are not debt slaves. We are love, and love cannot be stopped. You did that. You are here because you knew there would come a day when you’d be needed. We may never take our masks off and that’s okay. We’re good with that. We know who we are. We are the ones we’ve been waiting for. (The audio version can be accessed via this picture.) Before me now is an old fisherman with a minnow bucket followed by two dark haired women in sunglasses and visors, deeply engrossed in their conversation; all of them waiting for a brightly orange vested gentleman on a brilliant blue tractor pulling a grader. This is humanity; diverse, individual and unique. None of these folks know each other, yet all of them silently communicate and get their needs met on this path by the lake this morning. Now a gaggle of geese move in front of me, with one amongst them lame. He hobbles a bit, and at times uses his wings to propel him. He gets much further this way, yet the effort exhausts him; he stops and rests often. The rest of the group slows down, and one in particular sticks close by so as not to lose him completely on their breakfast stroll. As we walk into these last weeks of summer, I am reminded with each passing day just how much closer we are to the final season in this pivotal year. Time seems to be rushing us towards the answers to all of our questions. What will happen? Will we do what is necessary to ascend? Will our off planet family ever show up? What will they look like? What will we look like? How will we supply ourselves when everything collapses? Is it all going to be okay? It is time for faith. The answer to all of it is YES. Not because we sat on the sidelines and waited. The lame goose had to use his wings to catch up. The others understood and patiently acquiesced. This is life – created in this brilliant, intricate balance that demands collaboration, action, patience and love. This is who we are. We are love in physical form, light, expressed as a fragment of humanity. Without conscious thought, we move always towards more; more love, more light, more life. The end result is a sure thing. Our bodies are morphing with no verbal instruction. They are begging us to move ahead and allow this full force of light to emanate. Can you feel it? Each day there seems a physical shift; something that no longer agrees with me or works the same. The goose gave up on his foot and used his wings. It is up to us to do the same. Let go of what doesn’t work, be it a kind of food, relationship, type of bank or form of government. Trust. We will go much further with wings then we will with lame feet. Life always continues its relentless push for more. We cannot grasp this light that is before us while hanging fiercely on to what is present now. Have faith. Somewhere inside you know what to do. You have to let go. We are brilliant beings of eternal light here with a definite plan. Our plan will carry us ever forward, with our lights blazing. This shift will happen because of us. Our efforts, our love and our light insist on it. We are the ones we’ve been waiting for. For it is love, self love, that brings you to an “ascended” state. It is agape that is key, the pivotal action; necessary in these times of upheaval. Remain steadfast in your love. There are no greater or lesser beings than you – you are One. A mass of love, all rolled into One – humanity. We have not known this truth. We’ve been admonished via our religious texts to love as an action, as something we must do. Yet their missing ingredient is a definition of where this action called “love” is sourced. It comes from you. You are the wellspring of agape. The supply of love in this world does not come from outside you – it springs from your soul. You are love; not a body with a soul, but a soul with a body. The soul/heart/generator of life is love. This is truth. This is you. We are drifting in a sea of dates, predictions, wishes and fears – conditions. The truth is without condition and exists without requirement. Stand in your power and love. This is who and what you actually are. What you can do right now is utilize your power of visualization to get you through this swirl of conflicting reports and information. When overwhelmed or confused or anxious, recognize that now your love is needed. It is needed more than ever. For love is truth. See yourself lock arms with every other being, our feet firmly planted on a groundswell of agape; the force of our light emanating out, altering our world. This vibration of love attracts every light being and repels all that are not. We are a force that broadcasts “The dark shall not pass”. The dark does not penetrate the light; it is the other way around. It is our light that calls forth every good thing, every positive action. Whatever is not in harmony with agape will not pass our unified field of Love. Force is not needed, you are. The power resides in your heart. See this in every anxious or uncertain moment. No special time or date is required, this is our new world. It is a world without corruption or destruction. It is a world bathed in light. We will activate this ascension. Our love will initiate every positive change. Our fear only repeats negative patterns. Love halts the cycle and initiates these end times. The curtain is rising and we hold the script in our heart. We’ve walked on stage. It is time. Lock arms with me and love. We are the ones we’ve been waiting for. You have come now to spread the light that you are. Many of your years you have spent in darkness, not understanding how to brighten things up. Perhaps you have been unaware of your brilliance. You’ve been told now that you are the light. This is not dependent on age or race or religion. All that you need, you have. Everything required for the mighty oak tree is present in the seed. You are like that tree, choosing once again to be a seed, just for the thrill of becoming. Only this time, the journey has more at stake. This time there’s an awareness of the forest and the soil and the impact on it all. These things you know, yet you have forgotten. It is time to re-learn them. We are each others teachers now. It is time for us to listen. This is how we love. Carefully, relentlessly, pay attention. There is not one aha moment as we awaken – there are multitudes of them. As a baby who see’s it all for the first time and finds every inch of it fascinating, so are we. It all matters. There are no insignificant moments. We are light workers. It was our choice to come here now. It is our choice to think, say and do whatever pleases us. There comes a time in the raising of my children that we stop controlling their portion sizes and bed times. After years of restrictions and explanations, we let go. It is our belief that it is only then that the child can determine for himself or herself what kind of life he or she will experience. There are stomach aches, sleepiness and new choices every time. This year and specifically these coming days and months, we are being given choices. Perhaps, like our children, we will choose initially what tastes the sweetest or is the most exciting. Then, as we experience the natural outcomes of our choice, we will perhaps choose again; perhaps not. This is free will. You are a being of eternal love and brilliant light. Love is what you are. As One, love is what we are. In service to One you came now, as a statement of free will, to illuminate the darkness. Your part in this is not small, it is unmatched. Each segment of One is part of the perfection. You are a vital component, regardless of income or place on the planet. You have come to remember. You are here to light the way. As you re-learn your truth, you will discover your own conduit for brilliance. This is a time of observation. Focus on how you feel when you make that comment, engage in that discussion, eat that food or practice that meditation. As you are impacted by each, we all are. Right now there is a “ramping up” of the consensus. We can feel each other now more than ever before. I sense your agape. I feel your self-loathing. Both affect the One that we are. Divinity walks with you. You are immersed in a field of creation – and you are creating that field as well. Each thought, word and deed has an impact. Listen. As you love, you are loved exponentially. Our new world exists inside of your light, beaming out love with diligence. For love is what we are, and this is the world we are here to usher in. We are the ones we are waiting for. If there is one thing I will remember about this time we are in, it is the wind. From the bare branches of winter to the full bloom of almost summer, the trees are in constant motion. This time is ushered in on a steady breeze; the winds of change. There are no such things any longer as seasonal temperatures. In the Midwest U.S. we’ve had 100 degrees in February and 35 degrees in June. Our vegetation is gloriously abundant, as if it were mid to late summer. People smile everywhere, regardless of the situation. Those that aren’t smiling sort of stick out “like sore thumbs”. I’ve been traveling, and an hour long delay was easily done as folks chatted, children played and people helped each other. I’ve been there before, this was not usual behavior. My family hosted a huge celebration at our home. During the party a miracle took place as several members who had been separated for 18 years were reunited. It was seamless, beautiful and a complete surprise. These constant winds are gradually, continuously raising our vibration. In this very dense third dimensional world, we have created this natural physical expression of the shift. The descriptions we’ve heard about life after the change are happening all around – just pay attention. The Shift is here. Love, beauty, joy and peace; I’ve gone nowhere but my backyard, front yard and the airport and I see them demonstrated. The winds are blowing them in. As we witness this change we will see many players and hear or read a variety of facts, predictions and “truths”. Pay attention to what rings true for you. Pay close attention to what doesn’t. We each define the reality and Shift we experience. What you focus on, think about, worry about and talk about becomes your life. Which life will you choose? Countless possibilities are here for you. There is a vast difference between denying something because you don’t like it and ignoring something because it’s just not where you are. In the first case focus is necessary and with focus comes creation. In the second case, although you’ve seen it, you have merely shifted your attention to what rings true for you and again, more of whatever that is gets created in your life. On my recent travels, my bags were delayed. I had more than one connecting flight and I had not only considered this possibility, but researched, talked and worried about it. I was not surprised. As this shift takes place and we morph from polarity to unity – we will be asked again and again to choose. There are no wrong choices. You are a being of light, here to help the transformation. You may see things not to your liking, you may read things that sound fearful to this 3D body you occupy and that’s okay. This is the time to decide if they ring true for you. Choose intentionally where your energy is directed. You are the only one who can. We are divine beings having a human experience. As we remember our divinity we will be faced countless times with who we are not, in order to define clearly who we are. We are love. The force of our essence is collectively creating every moment of existence. Each thought, word and action add to our singular voice, our choice. As the winds push us through these interesting times, there is one place you can always go to discover your truth. No questions are necessary; your heart holds your answer. Go there for solace and you will navigate these coming days with confidence. Your power rests within. You are the one you’ve been waiting for. It is time to decide who we are in all of this. Are we going to remain loyal to the way things are? Are we going to speak together, regardless of what appears to be happening? This is an individual challenge – who are you? It is not merely a fad or a passing thought to be a light worker. You have come to work for the light. This planet has been ruled/owned by more dark forces than light. Choosing one versus the other, light versus dark is merely a preference. Each spark chooses, in every moment, what is believed to be the best action, the most beneficial choice. What is done will depend on what direction you are headed. The Cabal have been attempting to unify the planet by reducing the population and controlling it – the methods used are self serving and not beneficial to the entire organism. The do not begin with love. In order for this planet to progress and move where she wants to go smoothly and easily, with her people, she requires a different way of doing things, another method, and a new direction. That direction is one of unity and involves every being. You are here to show the way. You have come to be a way shower. We are one. This is truth. The fluidity of source is running through each and every one of us. The love that we are is present in everything. All of creation is alive – all of life is creation. You cannot separate out life. Life merely is. The rocks, the sky, you, the vegetation, the earth, the stars; it all is alive. It is all a part of One. Source energy always exists. It does not stop. It never ends. As a people, we have chosen to participate in a transformation and as a people we are creating the transformation we have chosen. Think of what is necessary when you put on a play, a stage performance. There are many rehearsals as you get deeper and deeper into the portrayal of the parts – why? So that the audience believes you and you know your lines as if you had thought of them yourself. What is happening now is that after eons of deep sleep and forgetfulness you are remembering your part, and rehearsing your lines. As you read them over and over, hear them again and again, you recall the part you are here to play in this transformation. It is such an important performance that many, many rehearsals are required. The better you are - the more audience members will be transformed by your performance. You have agreed to face many challenges and hardships in order to produce the most believable show. It will be seen as magic, for what is happening is a reversal of thought. The audience does not believe the show you are staging – they are asleep and very interested in staying there. Fear keeps them rooted to whatever show they typically watch. They will not only need to be entertained but convinced. Not all of them will understand. Your task as a light worker is only to perform; it is not to choose your audience. It is to put on the best show you can. It is to understand your role. Not everyone has your part. It is yours alone. The responsibility is yours to understand the part you play and believe in what you are doing. Imagine if, after the show was written and countless rehearsals were held; after the costumes were made, the stage prepared, the props designed, the music composed and the stage lights synchronized, the actors stopped showing up. Rather than rehearse, they said “I’m sick of hearing about this show, nothing is happening, I have other things to do.” The show would never happen. When we signed on for this show, this process of Ascension, it was with the understanding that “The show must go on,” and we were the ones putting on the show. (Quote from the 19th century circus. If an animal got loose or a performer was injured, the ringmaster and the band tried to keep things going so that the crowd wouldn’t panic.) Allow the inner performer in you to take over and remember that this is the part of a lifetime. “The opera ain’t over until the fat lady sings,” and she hasn’t yet begun. (Dan Cook, U.S. sports writer from the 1970’s) Only you know your role in all of this. Just remember you are here now to perform that role, not merely talk about it and practice it. There really is a show and you actually have a part to play. The best source of inspiration for how to play yours will spring from deep within. Every truth is already known. It has been there always, waiting to be discovered and remembered. This is a unifying moment for us – we are together realizing our power and our purpose. We work for the light. This is our role and all that we do will strengthen the light force that we are. I have learned in performing stage plays that the worse the dress rehearsal, the better the opening night. The more things go wrong then, the better chance for a flawless performance at show time. This is not a time to despair or lose hope. It is time to renew our beliefs and increase our efforts. This show only happens in whatever way we make it happen. We came for this, we were chosen for the part and we know our lines. Now is the time to perfect them. We are the ones we are waiting for. |
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