You reside in a field of love. Your very base programming begins there. It is the spark of each other that joins you. Isolated, you may appreciate nature and love life, yet it is in human contact that you embody the fierce power of agape. For when you love another, it is not their attributes that are calling to your soul, but a reminder of your own.
When you look at each other and are deeply moved, it is because at a fundamental level you understand that there you behold the sacred. It is you that has stirred your own soul.
What this moment is about is a shedding of our skin of self-loathing. What is not perfection is not true. The veil that we speak of is not draped between ourselves and others - but hanging, invisibly, as a barrier to the truth. It is you on the other side of that veil - gloriously abundant and here now on purpose. Your vessel will push waves of light cascading over all of creation, creating tsunamis of love.
For love is a force. Love is here because you are here. It arrives unbidden whenever you do. It takes a being of unimaginable power to embody divinity. It takes you.
We are the one you've been waiting for.
It’s like someone pressed replay.
In the last several weeks I’ve either heard from, or run into people whom I haven’t seen in years. The first time it was interesting. The sixth time, which was last night on a walk in the nearby park, it was sort of mind blowing. It’s like a weird sort of family reunion, only it feels more like a review than a visit. I am bumping into everyone who’s played some role in my life, however brief; sort of re-living who I was then, and then, and then, and then… Parts of me I had forgotten are once again saying hello. Not all of these are welcome guests. I’ve worked very hard to extricate them and thought I’d never see them again. I was wrong. I may need a twelve step program; Addictions Anonymous.
What is an addiction? It is something that seems to take over and recur without thought. You become a slave to this impulsive thought, behavior, food, drug or drink. Consciousness means perhaps we can identify them now, it does not mean they are gone. As we become more aware, all of who we’ve ever been is checking in. “Are you sure?” “Shouldn’t you be afraid?” “Who do you think you are anyway?” “Stop all this, it’s too weird!”
Our habits of fear and low self esteem are staring us down – daring us to ignore them. They are like any worthy addiction and will not be denied. The way to deal with these challenges is to love them. This is the only thing that seems to work. It takes the wind out of their sails. Then it is just a matter of persistence. Absorption, not resistance, will see us through.
We’re wired to be addicted here. It’s what keeps us focused on this solid 3D life we are in. It’s time for some new addictions – success, happiness, love, abundance, fun. They may not be our habitual thoughts today, but with practice they could be. Practice for the next dimension.
We tend to gloss over the good stuff – from now on, don’t. Feel it and celebrate it. Allow it to grow in your heart, experience how it feels in your body. You’ll inevitably want more. This is conscious creation, and the best antidote for self abusive addictions.
When an old self destructive version of you shows up, gently tell him to take a seat. Then see yourself as you want to be; strong, shining, powerful and loving – standing right there. With a warm hug and a gentle goodbye, let the seated version of you go. When I do this, she sort of dissolves by becoming pixilated and I absorb her. She is me, and I love her. It’s okay. I know who I am now. I am love.
We are here now to release the bonds of density and slavery. We have come to embody freedom, while we demonstrate truth. We are not our addictions, our habits or our past. We are powerful beings of light, here to show how this is done.
Tenacious and fearless, we will love ourselves beyond all reason. There is nothing in society that tells us we should. The rules we have memorized outline only why we shouldn’t. We are changing the rules right now, denying every self-defeating impulse and loving ourselves. We are doing this.
We are the One we’ve been waiting for.
Who will you be? This is the choice before you now. Love or fear?
Everything you do, everyone you run into, everything you eat and wear and say and think – it’s all a statement of who you are creating. She’s who will walk through the last third of this year. By choice; your choice.
He is the manifestation of your thoughts. It does not matter who said or did anything to you. It matters how you loved.
Every Quest, every “other”, every moment, it has always come to this. How do you love? Not the passion or romance, but the love. What is your heart to give now? You cannot give what you don’t have.
What are you carrying in your heart? For this is what is felt by you. From you, to you – the circle is much smaller than you have imagined.
For every uncomfortable, negative emotion that erupts is indeed you – it springs from you. It may begin when you encounter anger or discomfort or fear yet this is absolute truth – you can only give from what is in your purse.
What is in yours? This is the purse that you use for everyone and everything. This is your abundance, your supply. Are your coffers full of sadness? Self pity? Anger? Loneliness? Fear? Are instead you replenishing your purse with agape?
Once you truly understand the love circle, you’ve got it – going anywhere isn’t necessary for you’ve found the way home. The path of your heart will take you always to greener pastures. You are not barren and there is no “other” who can give you your supply.
Come to understand deeply the way of your love – for the path to ascension is there. Many are calling for specific practices and places, methods and beliefs.
Yet truly there are none. The most isolated person, hearing nothing of ascension, but living each day from his strong heart will be in this vibration of love – right alongside one who activates everything according to the schedule.
This is a time when your heart holds all of the answers.
What is your heart telling you now? Respond without reacting. Love without expectation. Give from a full heart and you will remain in a place of love.
Ascension is, simply put, a going up. This implies we have been beneath where we are headed. We have used numbers to indicate levels of awareness or “density”, yet they are merely markers – it all leads to Agape.
The One that we spring from has no need for self pity or any other form of self indulgence. The One is pure Agape. This is why free will exists. Actions cannot mar the love that the One extends to itself. There are no conditions that would cause the One to change its mind.
The One is pure unconditional love. This is the One that we are. When we embrace this with our very souls, we will have ascended.
We are the One we are waiting for.
Hello! We arrive today at our beginning, the place where love was planted. It rests within you. It’s always been there. We just had to turn the light on so we could find it.
Our light is on now. We may need to install fresh batteries now and again to keep it going. That’s okay; we know where to get them and which ones work the best. They are found in the places that feed our soul.
We are components of the One – each an integral part, necessary and unique. In 1898, Konstantin Stanislavsky said “There are no small parts, just small actors”. Sometimes we imagine our light unimportant or too tiny to make a difference.
Once I found myself sort of stuck in the corner of a tightly packed storage facility. Half of our stuff was packed there as work was being done on the house. It had taken longer than anticipated, and because the children wanted their beloved decorations for an upcoming holiday, I was searching through stacked to the ceiling boxes, piled all around me. Then the power went out, and all went black.
For a moment, I panicked. I was alone and not sure anyone even knew I was there. But I opened my cell phone and became illuminated! It was small, dim and didn’t stay lit for more than ten seconds at a time, but it helped me find my way. Now it took awhile, and crawling around with my phone in my mouth left a few bruises, but I made it – thanks to that tiny light.
We are all like that. We just don’t know how far our words reach, or the effect one generous thought can have. The really cool thing is, we don’t have to. As we focus on loving ourselves, our light expands as does our reach.
The light that you are is vital. Know that you are a microcosm of the whole. What is happening in your heart is being played out in our world. Love yourself. With the energy of your love and the power of your light you change everything. You came to discover just what you could do in such a dark place. You came to light the way.
You are so much more than you know. The brilliance of you is bringing us all to a place of unparalleled beauty. You were made for this.
We are in sort of crazy times. All around it looks like the power went out. Your light is so important now. Be that one in a billion light source that changes everything. You know how.
Just love. Against all odds and in the face of every negative thought, word or situation – refuse to be afraid. You know who you are. You are a piece of the divine here to spark a passionate healing flame of Agape. This is not for the feint of heart. The strongest among us took this on. We are the ones who said yes.
You are powerful, capable and oh so ready for this. It is an honor to witness. As you push your way out of the dark and emerge, brilliant and beautiful, our world is forever changed.
We are the One we were waiting for.
This completes our Quest! Thank you!
~This Quest has had a deeper significance for me. A very close love of mine is about to undergo surgery. He is a veteran, and came home 7 years ago with more in his body than he left with. If you’d just send your light to my hero, specifically tomorrow, it would help. Namaste’.
With so much love and gratitude,
We’ll meet again on September 21st, 2012.
This is a different sort of Quest. You are not heading out into unknown territory. You know exactly where this love is located. It was there when you started and it’s still there right now. You are searching for that which you are. You are love.
How can it be that you’ve forgotten? How is it that we’ve lost the map? What has happened to our GPS (Global Positioning System)?
It’s been tampered with, we’ve been distracted, and as a result most of us today distrust the internal sense we arrived with.
I drive a 6 year old car, equipped with a Navigational System. At first, I didn’t use it much. The “Make a U turn, if possible” bossy voice sort of annoyed me. I used it only for long trips. Slowly but surely I got used to “Annie” (for “any-where”) and began to rely on her more and more. As I did, I stopped using my own memory of towns and roads so much – I just let her show me the way with this sort of blind faith.
We were born fully cognizant of our wisdom. We understood the light that we were and knew where the switch was located. Our hearts held the key. No one had to tell us we were wonderful and yet they did, often.
The life of an infant in cradled in love. That infant makes no effort to find or get that love and yet, there it is. An infant, most recently from Source, knows absolutely nothing of society. It is cared for and loved without condition every day. It is held, fed and showered with all good things – giving nothing in return.
“Ahhhh”, you say, “but babies are irresistible, they are beautiful, precious miracles – What’s not to love?”
“Indeed”, would be my reply, “as are you.”
A baby is an agape machine. It sleeps when it is tired, eats when it is fed and loves without holding back. It is born brilliant. Have you ever been present at the birth of a child? There is a light, a force that is emitted from both child and mother. It is magic.
Babies emanate love until we adults teach them not to, and they stop using their own memory. They are born loving their fingers and their toes and their torso and their voice and their thoughts and their sexual organs. There is nothing they dislike about themselves. Their self love sort of leaks out of them and we see it, falling in love with them again and again every day.
We call them angels and precious and miracles and beautiful. They do not protest; they are in full agreement! This is my deepest wish for all of us. That we find ourselves, all grown up now, in full agreement with these words:
You are a miracle. Source had a unique and brilliant idea and here you are. You began with one precious thought – absolute unconditional love. You beamed gloriously forth to join us here; to illuminate us with the love of our creator.
You volunteered to lose your way; only as a method of education and advancement. The brilliance that you are can best be seen in contrast, and so there has been darkness.
It is time to turn on your vibrant light, to remember where the switch is located. I don’t have it. It is not in your wallet. It is not in your closet. It is not in the words or actions of anyone else. It is in your very soul.
You need nothing to complete this journey. Who you are – is right here, whispering, waiting and oh so ready to be found.
Remember. A baby just lies there, loving itself and the whole world follows suit. It is time for you to do the same. You are a piece of perfection; there is nothing else you need. You are a brilliant being, a vibrant light. There is no way for you to be lost any longer. We’ve found you.
We are coming to the end of this journey and we can see your light, guiding each of us home.
We are the One we’ve been waiting for.
Thank you! I love you.
Today begins the second half of this Quest.
The path to Agape will take us to Oneness. Self love is love of the One that you are. The One that you are is a piece of divinity. We are connected. We spring from Source, and we have never let go. So we are moving in a circle, finding our way home, returning to the beginning, which is One.
The path to Oneness is Agape. Do you see how this works? Absolute love for you yields Universal Unconditional Love. There are in fact no separators between you and us. Once you accept yourself completely, we all start to look a whole lot better!
It is not that you tolerate or overlook our faults. It’s not that you would have made every choice in the same way that we did. It’s not that you even want to spend a great deal of time with us. It’s that you understand at a very deep level that we are alternate versions of you. Loving you means, by definition, that you love the rest of us.
It’s that easy and that challenging. Our world is a hologram. The best science today doesn’t know precisely how it works, yet quantum physics tells us what’s in our minds is projected out to become what’s in our world. What you think about yourself is what you will see in everyone else.
Fill your head with love and what will happen to your life will astound you. Imagine a world filled with people who loved themselves. This is what we are here for; to create and participate in that world.
We’ve been practicing for such a long time – trying out a little agape here and some unconditional love there. Never sure when the show was set to begin, we fell back often to self hatred. There have been so many reasons! Our bodies, our jobs, our grades, our past and our relationships each offer plenty of opportunity for failure, disappointment and blame.
Well its show time. We’ve had our dress rehearsal. We know our lines and we know how this story ends. This curtain will close on a myriad of wonderful depictions of unity. We’ve been singing songs of love and writing movies of success forever – now it’s time to sing them in our everyday and watch them play out on our streets. We’ve been telling ourselves our own story – we just never knew it was real.
It is real. Most of what we’ve been force fed is the lie. You have no enemies. God has no favorites. There are no mistakes. Judgment is an archaic idea that creates fear and diminishes your power. It is not possible to hold judgment while loving absolutely.
Your power resides in your love. This strength is yours right now. Call it forth. This light is what you are. Feel it rise up and watch the faces of your loved ones light up when you shine it upon them.
This is what you’ve come for; to love. Once you love yourself, the entire world is your Beloved.
We are One. One spark, here now to get this whole place lit up! Our light has been hidden beneath shame and sadness, fear and debt, servitude and low self esteem. No one has been able to convince you of your greatness – until now.
We know now that to claim our perfection is not arrogance, but truth. We are components of the One; self-love is the key to Ascension – Ascension for all of us.
We are the One we are waiting for.
It is an honor to share this time with you.
See you tomorrow,
As a solution to several requests, what follows is the note from the Love Quest, which is a Face Book event. These will continue until 8.27.2012.
I sort of planned to explore today what oneness isn’t. I think that it is easy to talk virtually about love and light and unity and then blame your boss or carry anger for what your ex-lover “did”. In perfect synchronicity, my everyday life has been swimming in duality. Actually, if it wasn’t for the Quest and all of you, I’d be drowning. This has turned out to be more than I bargained for! In no uncertain terms, I am dealing with duality.
These Quests began in the Spring of 2011 and were never intended to continue past the first one. It was suggested as a way to explore in “real time” with each other what it means to love yourself. I was a different woman then and walked around with a large wad of blame in my pocket. After the first Quest, we all wanted more and here we are today, with monthly journeys and no end in sight. The fact that Face Book shut down the first account hardly seems to matter. Love prevails!
But what is not love? It seems to be cropping up everywhere I look this week. The whole notion of “what you believe is what you create” makes little sense if you are thinking about illness and poverty and physical harm. Yet, the law of attraction exists.
So what’s the deal? Today I find myself dealing with issues of health and money and watching highly evolved people whom I love deeply doing the same. It all comes down to self loathing.
It has to stop. We’ve all watched “The Secret” and “What the Bleep” and read Neale Donald Walsch and Abraham Hicks and heard Mike Dooley and many others. We actually do know how this works. We’ve been inundated with teachers because the programming runs so deep. We’ve learned well, it is the un-learning that will set us free.
There are two thoughts that separate and isolate us. One is that we are somehow “different”. Two is that “No one would understand”. Both are false. A few years back I attended a seminar and the scariest part was this: you stood up and told the group, 100+ people, the worst secret you could muster up about yourself. I was terrified. As I listened and then took my turn I realized that appearances reveal nothing and second of all my worst was pretty much status quo. We’ve all been there. We’ve all done “worse” and we all deserve love in spite of it.
Duality is screaming to get our attention! Who are you? Are you someone who hates? Are you someone who loves? Do you buy all this love and light jazz or are you convinced it is the physical you that is real? We are being asked to choose.
Believing in the love that you are is the ultimate statement of truth, of faith. Whatever is showing up for you right now – debt, fear, illness, anger, hatred or loss of any kind is merely a test. It cannot be ignored, and it is multiple choice. It is not pass/fail; there are many ways to complete it successfully. Within you is the right answer, the one that suits your heart. You know what to do. You came for this. Remember.
Your spiritual evolution will continue in the most perfect fashion, following whichever blueprint you construct right now. It is my deepest belief that tells me you are love. We are not different from each other at all, and you would understand.
It is faith that will see us through. Faith in love or light or God or Source or whatever term you use. Faith in something beyond what these eyes are seeing. You are not your body. You are not your stuff. You are divinity; an intricate piece of the fabric of life, woven into oneness. You have done more than read these words today; you have possibly saved a soul. As I turn on and shine my own light, I illuminate those within my world and there is no telling how far this light now reaches.
For darkness is only eradicated with light; with you. Take care of your issues that show up today, completely and with a strong heart. Yet do not embody them. For they do not define you, love does.
We are so much more than we know. We are the ones we’ve been waiting for.
With so much gratitude, I will see you tomorrow,
In June it was a shock. After a decade of sweeping the seconds, the kitchen clock crashed to the floor. There was no sudden movement or jostling to have caused it to do so. We laughed, because it occurred on my son's birthday, saying "time stopped the day you were born!"
As there are cell phone clocks and microwave clocks and stove clocks, I was in no hurry to get another. But eventually I did. It lasted a week or two. It too, has come crashing to the ceramic tile floor and is no longer recording the passage of time in this home.
I suspect that we are vibrating out of time. I don't think I'll purchase another one. I am wondering, is anyone else having similar experiences? It is getting interesting, for sure.
Today begins our Love Quest. For the next 7 days we will explore agape and this blog will essentially move there – to a face book event. You can join via this link and receive each daily note to your inbox:
Here is our first day’s note, just to get the idea…
Hello! Welcome to our Quest for Agape. I am so grateful to be here again.
This time we will explore deeply the truth of our connection – oneness. For as One, we are beginning to appreciate just what that actually means. Agape takes on a whole other “dimension” when you understand that the One you unconditionally love – is us.
I was recently asked, “What is a Love Quest?” Those of us who have been here since they began (a year and a half ago) will remember that we started by loving ourselves in our bathroom mirrors. These Quests are the ultimate journey to truth, the path to Ascension. Ascension is a rising up to a faster vibration. The hallmark of this place we are moving to is love. We are not truly going anywhere. We are becoming that which we are. We are love.
When you understand deeply this truth, you find something that may surprise you. It is okay to love yourself. In fact, it is necessary. For what is held in your head about this being that is you, will radiate out to become your entire world. This life that is yours is a projection of whatever it is you believe. What you believe, you perceive.
Believe in yourself. You chose and were chosen to be here today. You are the Master, it is not necessary to seek truth in another, you only need remember. You are love. A God particle shot from Source, here to love in the darkest place in the universe. Earth has been your home not as punishment or because we are lesser beings, but because we are brilliant lights.
Only one such as you could handle this dimension. Only light such as yours is brilliant enough to sustain itself while immersed in ideologies of war, greed, subservience, slavery, illness and pain. Not only have you maintained – you have become a beacon of light and altered the course of humanity.
Our favorite movies are those in which the odds are clearly stacked against the lead character and he or she triumphs anyway. This is because we’ve been watching our future, writing our own story, and remembering why we are here. Every thought, word, and deed, whether self or other directed is a line in the script. We know this truth today. It is time to write each line with one focus – love. This is why you are here. Intend only love.
Your power is unmatched. We are surrounded with off world beings not to help us so much as to watch us! We are transforming ourselves and the planet on which our feet are parked, with not more than our faith to go on. Our inner promptings have led us here, to a place of choice.
In the sharp contrasts we encounter each day, we see clearly the options; to see ourselves as separate and judge or to see ourselves as One and love. What you do, think, and feel in each moment becomes your life.
Love yourself. Give yourself a gift today. Begin this Quest with immersion in adoration. Take a walk, a few extra moments and honor the One that is you. He is beautiful beyond description. She is powerful beyond measure. You are the Master of the Universe. Uni-Verse. One Verse. One Song. Us.
There is no other here to sing this song. It is you.
You are the one you’ve been waiting for.
See you tomorrow,
What feels like judgment enfolds us within this transitory, tricky spot. As we figure out just who we will create ourselves to be, we aren’t sure of ourselves and can’t handle any opposition. These are the tender steps of becoming something we’ve never been.
The caterpillar doesn’t know it is a butterfly, yet an internal mechanism begins and he builds a cocoon – a shelter – protection. No naysayers or other opinions are available while he changes. There are no conflicting thoughts reminding him of which colors would be better or what wing size would be the most effective for speed or distance.
No, the caterpillar effectively hides and emerges as another thing altogether – beautiful perfection on wings. There are none who would second guess a butterfly.
Without the luxury of cocoons, we are choosing our colors and building our wings. The choices made today spring from our core – this was a clock set eons ago. We have begun a process; unfolding to complete a physical, mental, emotional and spiritual metamorphosis. All eyes are on us as we morph; judgments at the ready. Surrounded in mirrors, we must refuse to believe what we see or hear, and listen to what we know.
We are butterflies, building our wings, shedding our skin, leaving our feet behind. In many ways it’s a sort of hideous process, yet we chose to do it right out in the open. There are no human cocoons.
As we let go of our caterpillar ways of getting around, there will be many who will run after us with new sorts of ill fitting shoes to protect our disappearing feet. These will feel heavy. We will soon see they don’t work well.
We are in an awkward moment – sort of a caterpillar and almost a butterfly. Our wings are not fully formed and sort of hang there, quietly fluttering. Our caterpillar feet are not very useful. We look and feel sort of a mess – unformed and out of place.
We must trust the butterfly blueprint in our soul. It is there. We feel it in moments of pure love, absolute connection and surrender to the One that we are. These losses we are experiencing are like many tiny feet on a caterpillar. We don’t need them anymore. We’re programmed to fly. Our time for takeoff is fast approaching.
We are the ones we are waiting for.