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A huge wave of unconditional love to you and your families as we enter this next cycle. Thank you for sharing some time with me.
If you close your eyes
What is happening now is extraordinary. In this fictional arena called time we are becoming One. It transcends language so hang in there as a telling is attempted.
Yesterday polarity roared, gasping for breath. There was a moment of confusion. Within reach and in plain sight were the oxygen tanks; familiar and easy to operate. Yet nearby, something else insisted; something new and untested.
It was not reached for as much as it arrived, right on time. In one bold moment of unity, agape arrived. It said "I know you. I have seen you. There is nothing you can do to change the way I feel for you. You are no parts distasteful, hateful, repulsive or disappointing. You are me. How can I hurt or hate that which I understand? I am you."
This answer came clothed as a human. Another who knew the question without sound or words; who felt it and responded. Oneness. The oxygen tanks remain unused, we are breathing new air.
Oneness transforms everything. It is not taught so much as recognized; learned so much as remembered. The precise moment in which you realize that God has always been within you, you know truth. You are God. As God, there is no other. None to judge. None to blame. None to fight. None to harm. None lesser or greater. Just One. One to love.
Yesterday life played its songs and stories, reminding us of what we are doing. We are closing not just a door, but a plot line. Its recurring roles and lives and struggles were lived so that we'd understand completely. We do. We can walk as One now. We can trust each other. We are One, in real time.
The walls must fall. It's the only way.Acceptance of love erases any risk. We must be willingly, unconditionally ourselves. All the walls were glass anyway. We just pretended they were either mirrors or bricks. We've moved past the need for pretense.
Oneness breathes only love. When you meet another who breathes that air, joy sort of melts from their pores. Look around, it is happening in surprising faces. You can see it in their eyes; agape.
If you close your eyes, you can feel it. You've been here before. Remember.
You are the One you've been waiting for.
It seems as if life, love and questions are bursting from me without effort. This is not a singular path, with a foreseeable destination. It feels like an explosion of experience.
I will confess to having not kept up with any current predictions or astrological forecasts; aware only that the winter solstice and equinox are fast approaching. It is now, that is what I can count on. And that is complete and enough.
I have had my share of loss, and today I am witnessing yet more. I do not know the reasons for it all... I speak and write about the necessity of self love and the ability to maintain a state of pure love in the midst of great pain. How is this done?
I recall a decade ago, facing a tragic, unexpected and unexplainable loss. I spent many many days wondering how the sun could rise? Did not it know that my world had ended? And yet, it rose anyway.
It rose again today. Someone very dear to me sent me this:
I responded: “I wish I was the real Santa.”
I have no snappy sayings or helpful quotes today. Life goes on, choices are made and accidents happen. It isn't always pretty or fun or in our plans. Yet the sun comes up regardless. Perhaps the lesson is found there. The sun has been called the giver of life. This life, the one this body is living, is not a guarantee of anything permanent. It is merely an opportunity. It is upon us to take full advantage of it.
“if you really want to know what the body looks like, look up into the evening sky and see the stars, cells of cosmic energy scattered in the infinite vacuum of the dark night sky. If you really want to know what the body sounds like, listen to the waves and the wind for the energy they carry. If you really want to know what the body's energy feels like, be aware of a gentle breeze caressing your cheek and sense the information carried in the molecules breathed in and out by every person and thing that has ever lived.”
Paul Pearsall, “The Heart's code”
Listening to this today moved me to tears:
It is the work of Stuart Mitchell, using the translations of geneticist Susumu Ohno. He transposed adenine, guanine, cytosine and thymine (the four nucleotides on the strands of dna) to musical notes. Hearing it caused waves of excitement throughout my entire being. It was not just my ears that were engaged, it felt like my soul heard it too. Who we are is musical, rhythmic and beautiful.
We are one. Perhaps what we can count on is that we have never been alone and we never will be. Regardless of how many leave too early and seemingly against our wishes, there will always be love. In the decade since I lost my loved one, I have gone on to love still. That phone call carrying the news of great loss was not the death blow I had imagined it to be. It has changed everything, yes, yet it did not stop my heart from loving. If anything, it accelerated my awakening. Love is more than I had imagined.
If I was the real Santa I would give everyone enough love to hold them together; with just enough extra to spill out the top. Then, I’d catch what spilled out and give it again...
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I wish you the most blessed of holidays...
You are the One you've been waiting for.
Interested in being the ONE?
Details on the Hundredth Monkey Project found here.
It's about the embodiment of Pure Love.
We are the One's we've been waiting for.
The thing about this trip is that no one can tell you exactly where it leads. Google doesn't know. Siri doesn't know. The moment of arrival can't be predicted or plotted.
Traveling this way is disconcerting at first. In a non-linear world everything is sort of vague and non specific. Surprises are everywhere. Times, deadlines and even destinations have little relevance. What matters is the doing.
The Pando reminds me of what we'll find there. The Pando is an ancient clonal colony of quaking Aspen, found in Utah, USA. Estimates of its age start at 80,000 years but reach back to 8 million years old. What is clear is that these trees are connected, but that connection (a single root system) is invisible and sort of a distraction as they are all parts of a single living organism, one of this world's oldest.
We are ONE. We exist as separate looking versions of ourselves, with separate sounding opinions, names, birthplaces and histories. Once we reach awareness, it'll sort of be like reaching Utah. We'll look around and notice that everyone looks exactly the same. If we decide to dig deep, we'll see that not only do we look alike above the ground, but we are ONE organism beneath as well. If we decide to ascend to the skies and look down, we'll again see ONE colony of identical trees. There will be no escaping our ONEness.
With awareness comes simplicity. No longer are the reasons for your feelings complicated. It will not matter who got there first, who tripped who on the way, or who has the most souvenirs. Once you reach awareness, reasons fall away and whats left is the feeling. There is not a single path to Agape because, like the Pando, roots/connections exist in every direction. As part of the ONE, you will throw out your own shoots along the way. This journey cannot be mapped.
The whole point is Agape. Like an invisible root system, this is the binding that forms who we are. It's not like we are separate things, held by an idea. We are one thing. The discovery of that singularity happens and WHAM – you are there. No one can tell you when that will happen. These journeys point to what you'll see along the way; they cannot put into words its magnificence.
So, let everything go and you'll be there. It's that simple and the most difficult trip you'll ever take. You are here now to do this. Your success and your arrival is guaranteed. Expect only love and what you'll find is that you were never alone. I've been growing right beside you the whole time, as has every “other” you have known. We all love you. We all ARE you.
We are the ones we've been waiting for.
This ends our Love Quest for December. We will begin again in January, look for an invite/announcement next week. Also in January keep your eyes out for the “Hundredth Monkey Project”!
Have a blessed holiday and know that in every moment you are love. I love you.
So, this Agape trip is something new. It is not so much a love story as it is a family reunion. What we are attempting is complete integration – Eternal You with ego you.
Many parts of the journey have gotten a bad rap. There is the “ego”. There are the “bad relationships”. There are a host of conspiracy theories, all plotting to make your life miserable.
As you move further into the Awareness Field, you notice something – none of these people, plots or parts of you seem to be hanging back. We are all coming along. It's Ohana in action - "Ohana means family. Family means nobody gets left behind.... or forgotten."
This is not the oneness that we've dreamed of, it's the oneness we've created. Everyone included – regardless of past or current attitudes or actions.
Well, shoot. What now? Now its time to dig deep into that pocket of acceptance and pull out understanding. There can be no judgment in Unity. No parts of us are wrong or need to make amends. All that was done, is. All that is, was done. We are parts of a single unit, moving in a circle. We have been each other and we've been here before. We may not have liked it much then either. Yet we are here, together again, reaching for absolute truth.
Absolute truth is what your heart knows. Each and every one of you have felt it. Perhaps while making love, holding your child, hugging another or laughing til you cried. It's the indescribable glue that binds us to each other.
This super glue is invisible. It cannot be measured. It must be lived and breathed and felt and exhaled. We are learning of the real power of our heart only in this last decade. It has a unifying function and seems to be the organizer of the human being. There is a book I'm reading now that talks about this - “The Heart's Code” by Paul Pearsall. It validates the intelligence and memory that is held in our heart.
Words aren't adequate when Oneness and Agape are the subjects. Agape is a knowing. It is an understanding of everyone else simply because you are everyone else. It cannot be discovered but must be allowed. Agape is Unity experienced viscerally. It is Walking Oneness.
You cannot find Agape because its never been lost. Not really. What you can do is reveal it. You do that by opening your heart to you. Then to me and to every enemy, friend and “other” you encounter. You do that by opening your heart, period.
It will come to a choice and it'll be some version of this: “You can be right or you can be love. Choose now.”
Invoke the love choice. You are worth every snippet of love available and then some. You are priceless and perfect and oh so much more than “right”. You the the One. The One you've been waiting for. Welcome home.
See you tomorrow.
There are points of focus on our journey that look more like obstacles than mere scenery. When encountered, these hills, valleys and waterways of angst feel insurmountable. Here's a partial list of love's dangerous territory:
-The Valley of Pain
-The Lakes of Liars
-The Ocean of Abuse
-The Crying Cliffs
-The Lost Falls
-The Devil's Cave
-Tundra of the Used
-The Glacier of Tears
We've assigned them with labels and as a result, pack plenty of appropriate and sturdy gear to prepare for each venture out there. This, our attempt at safety and protection, will one day become the bars on our prison.
Your heart is not meant to be protected. In fact, there is no gear available to keep it safe. Your heart is relentless in its push towards love. Regardless of terrain, it will reach always for the silver lining.
Looking for truth, your heart knows that from each perspective springs a sound reason/explanation. We do what we do because it seems like a good idea at the moment of our doing it.
We are not stupid, soft, easy or hard – we are human. That puts us all on one path. Whether we know it or not, this road to Agape is one we all share. More movies, songs and stories are written about love than any other subject. We are obsessed. We tell stories of the dangerous terrain in an effort to understand. Also to warn each other; “Stay inside!” “You can get hurt out there!”
All of this, the protective gear, the warnings and the stories don't stop the wanting. More than perfection, what we yearn for is love.
The trip feels dangerous, painful and hard. At the end of each effort a decision must be made – either do it again or put on more gear.
There is a way to move forward without gear or fear. It comes from the deepest part of your heart. It is not a technique or a specific route. The challenging terrain will always be out there. It is a decision.
This is not a decision about anyone or anything but you. It is the only decision you are qualified to make. It must be made every day. You can speak the decision once. Be very specific. Then for every day and/or moment after, that it needs to be restated, declare:
“I invoke my love choice now.”
What is this choice? It goes like this:
“Under every circumstance, with every being, within each relationship and during all encounters and journeys – I love myself without condition, judgment or exception. And so it is.”
No obstacle, person, place or event can alter this declaration. It is a now statement. It is an Agape Announcement. It is unconditional love by Intention.
Once you engage Agape as an everyday part of your life, you can stop worrying about being prepared, being protected or “being” anything at all. You are free to just be. You see, plans, rules, specific responses, outfits or equipment are cages. Agape doesn't thrive in or care about cages or any of that. Agape will ignore them all.
It's not perhaps what we imagined. It doesn't always feel good and it's not always easy. But it's always free. Freedom is a decision to honor the light that you are, regardless of circumstance. Agape happens when you shine that light indiscriminately on the world. You see, unprotected and unencumbered, your heart beats love to everyone it reaches. Just allow it to. Invoke your love choice and watch us all light up.
You are the One you've been waiting for.
See you tomorrow.
This is not an ordinary journey. It asks you to frequent places you'd prefer to avoid. The awareness of who you are in every circumstance is not comfortable at first.
There is only one thing to pack. It is called acceptance. There are at least ten to leave behind:
-reasons – any
You see, on this trip you'll confront yourself in every disguise. You'll look like lovers, cheaters, liars, bosses, strangers, bullies, friends, parents, siblings, children, people you've trusted and those you’ve hated. Don't be fooled. It is you every time. In each meeting you'll think the circumstances differ and the questions asked of you are many. In truth, there is only one question and it concerns just one being. “Do you love me?”
As you move from place to place and person to person, understand that in every utterance and with every interaction – this same question is before you. As you begin to see the language for what it is, and hear the “soul talk” that is universally understood, you'll comprehend an even greater truth - “you do” (love you). For to love you, is to love me, and I have felt your love. We are One.
There is no shame or blame or fault in love. To love is really the only point. The rest? Drama, window dressing and imaginary monsters and masters under your bed. These are the playthings of your ego self. They are interesting and fun for awhile. They are absorbing; fully formed bridges that move us from place to place. They are not destinations.
“Do you love me?” is the question. “I do” is the answer. Now, with an awareness of love – proceed. Which direction would love turn? What would love say? What would love hold onto? What would love do to whomever was loved? Each of these questions is answered within. This journey is entirely self-directed. Your heart knows the way.
Once you accept each version you encounter, the road smooths out, the weather clears and the food tastes better. There is no bitterness left in your mouth and no emotional debt weighing down your footsteps. You are unencumbered.
Acceptance of who you are asks you to first acknowledge your many disguises. No more pretending. The charade is over. Every inch of you is out there and its all okay. Perfection does not follow any blueprint “thought up” with your mind. Perfection is drawn in your heart, and your heart has not been trained. It doesn't stay within the lines or even understand the need for any of them. It simply loves. As you move further along, you'll feel the intelligence of its method.
To your rational mind – this Agape trip is nonsense. There are reasons and deadlines, lies and faults – each of them holding you up. You'll have to let them go in order to proceed. To accept without blame or “but”, every “other” version you've met on the path – this is agape. See me with all of my “faults” and know that I am you. I will stand in your way until you recognize yourself.
Then, once accepted, I'll join you. Together we'll reach the Awareness Field and notice the absence of mirrors. There we'll finally see each other. There, we will know Agape. We'll look into each others eyes and accept ourselves without hesitation. We are the Ones we've been waiting for.
I love you. See you tomorrow.
There is a field of Awareness. In it, grows love. What surprises those who happen upon it is the stark contrast found there. This is not a planned garden of pruned roses. It is rather haphazard. There are thorns as well as barren spots of dirt. Vibrant poppies and delicate violets thrive amidst dandelions and weeds. In some places, there are rocks.
It is shocking more for what is not seen there, than for what is. The prize-winning orchid is no where to be found. Awareness and love cannot be systematically bred for perfection. They are found in common places where no special effort was extended to produce them save one – life.
The gift of life carries with it every potential. There is now the possibility to see the vastness of the universe in a you tube video. (Click here) Life reaches beyond infinity and our ability to comprehend its sheer magnitude. We ARE that life; a microscopic human version of the Universe, all wrapped up in a single being.
There is no reason for us to be here; yet we are. It is upon us to supply the reason – to create and become the purpose of our existence. We are swarming all over this tiny planet in this inconsequential Universe. We may as well do so consciously. As I looked at the images shown in these videos, I cried. Not for the fact of my miniscule part but for the gift and intelligence of life itself. I AM.
We can no longer pretend to be small or unimportant. We have seen the truth. Like the dandelion, life seems to be everywhere. The further back you go, the more common it appears to be. This latest discovery, (click here), seems to indicate it was found on a rock. Of all places, why there?
Because life does not discriminate. Once you happen upon the Awareness field you realize something gradually and absolutely. Like life, dandelions and rocks, awareness rests in every possible setting. It defies definition, carries surprises and seems to be expanding. Love is like that too.
Once realized and allowed, self love pops up in the unlikeliest of places. We have believed, possibly, that the perfect combination of elements were necessary for agape to be possible; like orchids. Instead what you'll find is that perfection is not possible to manufacture – it exists simply because you do.
Every part of you is beyond comprehension or description in its beauty. Like the trillions of stars now visible, each part of you is Source itself. There is no such thing as solitary. You are One.
As we reach this Awareness field we stand in awe of the brilliance we embody. There is nothing common about you. What looks to be ordinary is in fact sacred and one of a kind. Without even thinking, you breathe in air and exhale while your heart pushes life through your veins. This, regardless of what your feet and hands are doing. You have trillions of cells, each uniquely intelligent with their own memories and ability to respond to your command.
Intend love. Watch each of those cells work their magic to support your plan. You are the brilliance beneath every part of your life. As we venture this week into Agape, we'll embody the Universal Intelligence that runs through everything – emitting love signals to every other part of life. Connected and Aware, there is nothing left to do but love.
It all matters, the bills, the heartaches, this world and the cosmos. It all responds to love. The exquisite beauty of life is what we'll see once we love ourselves. Love, like life, is everywhere. It is not so much knowing where to look, but knowing how.
We are the Ones we've been waiting for.
See you tomorrow.