It feels as if everyone I’ve ever been, in every lifetime, has settled in, pulled up a chair and is leaning forward with their hands on their knees, watching, waiting and expecting the show to start. They are all smiling, knowingly… (Is this integration?) I don’t have the heart to tell them that the show has not even been picked, let alone begun.
What has been chosen (by the one writing this post) is perhaps the least effective; tension mixed with a bit of apprehension all rolled into illness. Self-absorption rules the day, and even typing these words feels like an extraordinary effort. So what gives?
It’s not for lack of ideas; there are legal pads full of them, surrounding my desk. It’s not for lack of ability either, (remember all those “other “versions watching and waiting? They have done and been, well, everything and everyone.)
It’s more like – to what end? This journey has been incredible and life changing and seemingly never-ending. We thought it was going to be over 2 years ago, got over that and moved into, well, anticipating “the event”, and we are still here. The changes and disclosures and exposures are happening in quiet ways all over the globe. The headlines today could be ripped from the media two years ago… expectations for global financial collapse still predominate. How many times have we hoarded food or cash? Too many.
There have been weeks of contemplation. After years of signing “we are the ones we’ve been waiting for”, the wait is truly over in my heart. I get something now, and not just intellectually. I get that no one is coming, not via space ship or celestial light or streets of gold. I get that it’s me. This reality/new paradigm/life/world that I am living is entirely/100%/absolutely and in no uncertain terms my own.
That’s just the way it works. There is no reason and no explanation that will explain this. It is the slavery mindset that thinks “why?” We are moving out of that now. This realization is part of what comes with accessing your godhood/your authority/your sovereignty. A god stands there, knowing the answer, and gives. What does he/she give? Everything he/she has.
We’ve been misled about many things and lied to about many more. What you may think constitutes godhood is nothing more than the expressed desires of a worship hungry being. We are the gods here. Humans. These words may sound like blasphemy. They are not.
The media, churches, governments and schools have been broadcasting FEAR and SEPARATION for so long; it has seeped into the depths of our consciousness and feels true.
It is not true. Everything you’ve been told until very recently is suspect. I know that you know this, but what do we do with it? I’ve been contemplating questions like – “What will it take to live as the god I AM?” “How will it feel to love 24/7?” These are the hallmarks of the new Paradigm; and what we came to know, to live, to BE.
The answer to “To what end?” is given then – to get, not just intellectually, but in every fiber of our being, sovereignty; to embody Agape. This cannot be told to us by anyone other than ourselves. It is humanity that we’ve been waiting for, the people that have the answers, and the collective that will determine a new way to be. We will discover together what it is like to live as sovereign humans. We will form new ways to be in relationships and business, families and games. Oneness will be realized in the same way we do everything else, as a product of necessity. There is no one who can do this for us. It is time and we are the ones standing here.
This will take movement beyond situations where there is someone placed higher than the rest of the crowd, on a stage. This will take community. None of us have done this while human. We will have to help each other.
What will change now is everything. This will happen in your own life and in mine. It may not make the headlines yet that is irrelevant. It will happen because you have intended it. You who are reading these words have an investment in living as the free, sovereign being you are. You predict oneness and global peace. You allow love, and in fact are expecting it. What will create this is a gathering together with a unified intent. Who will create this – is YOU.
To move this effort forward I’ve begun the Hundredth Monkey Project. The intent for it is that together we can move past the fear & hesitation that blocks our power, into an empowered life grounded in self-love. I’ve asked the group that my partner channels to join us. Not because they know better than we do, they don’t (they are not living human lives). What they bring to our “Monkey Project” is the voice of our greater selves and a different point of view. They exist in a realm that we have come to call “the Jello”, it is a place of unconditional acceptance; we have come to name the atmosphere they exist in GRAL (Glorious Radiant Love). From a perspective like that, only extremely positive energy is infused into the space and that has been a welcome assist. They represent a place we are creating right now, on earth, as this new Paradigm.
There are efforts at community cropping up everywhere now as we co-create the new. This project is not the only one, not by a long shot. We are not meant to do this alone. We are meant to connect. I wish for all of us a place that feels like home. There is a plaque hanging in my kitchen and it says “There are two things to give our children. One is roots and the other is wings.” 2015 is the time to find a comfortable place from which you can fly. We are the Ones we’ve been waiting for.
These Quests began in 2011. They began with about 8 of us I think (1/2 of which were family) and at one point there were 5,000 of us joining the journey! Then, Face Book decided that couldn’t happen. The Quests continued though, from a blog that was started in order to do so, at: www.sophialove.org. Lots of things have changed since then except for one – our search for palpable, non-stop unconditional love.
I’ve been told that humans are the most exciting beings to incarnate as, because of our extreme emotions. We fill up our hearts to overflowing and then break them with a passion and enthusiasm unmatched in the cosmos. We are unique and incredible.
In other Quests there’s been a conclusion, a discovery, a settling at least. Not so this time. The energy of 2015 has brought me to a deep examining of us. What is our perpetual insistence on reaching for something beyond ourselves for fulfillment or answers?
Is it this slavery mindset? We are at the ten yard line now, and this next play better be clean and straight on through. We are Gods in hiding. I will share a personal, true story.
My partner is a deep trance channel. This means he leaves his body completely and allows other entities to speak through him. He “hangs around” in most cases, and listens. Some days he travels to other worlds.
For about 3 or 4 years we held a monthly creation group in our home. There were 6 of us and we’d ask questions of the group he channeled. This group was made of our expanded selves and other entities who knew us. Sometimes the crowd that “gathered” was huge!
My partner would often comment on what it looked like for him, out of body, from another point of view. He described these brilliant, huge and gorgeous light beings. As each one of us spoke, he would watch us light up. He was struck by the “ridiculous” things these beautiful, powerful beings were saying. Things like “He hurt my feelings.” “I don’t know what to say.” “I don’t know what to do.” “My stomach hurts.”, etc. Clearly, we had no idea who we were.
We are now finished with our first Quest of 2015. I leave you with an image of your light. Hold it and perhaps it will help to lift you out of any dependence. An attachment to anything less than what you are is what is holding you back.
You are absolute joy. You are Gods. A God lacks nothing, is without doubt or regret or disappointment. You are everything you’ve ever wanted. You are an exquisite being, unique in the cosmos for your ability to instill emotion into life. You are the One you’ve been waiting for.
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I love you. Thank you for sharing your heart with me.
Today, move into the place you’d like to live. Not a physical place but an emotional one. This place is designed by your intentions. There are some things you’ll have to leave at the door.
The most difficult to abandon may be blame. It used to fit in your back pocket; available to pull out at any moment. There’s no room for it in your new place. It is large, pointy and unwieldy; it won’t fit.
We are One. This idea is difficult to wrap your head completely around. It only works without judgment. Understand that judgment is not the same as opinion. There will always be people, attitudes, colors, foods, smells and activities you like more than others. You will prefer to “hang with” your favorites. That doesn’t mean the other colors, attitudes, people, foods, smells and activities are wrong. They are not. It is only that they are different than your favorites. Some things are just not your favorite. That’s okay. They are still perfectly acceptable. Easy to unravel when you think of it that way… It makes sense.
Now, think about the last time you were hurt, or any time when you were clearly and undeniably hurt, regardless of when. Stick to emotional hurts for this discussion. Put yourself there and remember the moment you felt wronged, misunderstood, mistreated, abused even. Sense the blame rise in you and feel your body react. Now, step away and watch. Notice how in that moment you’ve become powerless. This “other” has taken control of your world momentarily. You are surrounded in judgment and it feels intense. Is this a place you would choose to move into?
Lovingly and gently, tell yourself about the place you’d rather be. There are still opinions and favorites in this place, but they exist without judgment. You may be laughing there or you might by joking around and playing in this place, yet whatever you are doing, you are doing it consciously. There is no “wrong” terrible enough to take your power away. Nothing is worth your sovereignty. Blame is a dependent condition. You cannot be sovereign while believing it is real.
If you and I are One, than blame is an illusion; I am only accusing myself and pretending it’s you. Whatever righteous indignation I feel as a result won’t last and comes with a host of additional physical responses I’d rather avoid.
You’ll have to decide what you are willing to give up. It will come to a moment of truth. That’s what it takes to love without condition. It takes a release of finger pointing, judging, “tsk-ing”, complaining and blaming. Each of these is rooted in fear. Your new place only has room for Agape.
You may be immersed in habits of judgment and reasons for unhappiness. All habits can be changed, once you make the decision to do so.
Today you’ll have to choose how much your addiction to blame or judgment is worth. You can choose again, gradually, tenderly and lovingly. This is not about whose fault anything is, it’s about the creation of a new basis for your relationships and your life.
This place, the one we are entering, is based on unconditional love. It is inclusive. It is forgiving. It is like being embraced in complete acceptance.
This is the place of your most cherished dreams. The door is not locked. You can enter any time. Some of us are already there. Welcome home. We are the Ones we’ve been waiting for.
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This is a journey into your very core. The answers are not found in sound bites, songs or twelve step programs. The resonation of truth will be felt privately and in unexpected moments. This will arrive unannounced. The trouble with writing here a description of it is twofold. One is that it springs from my own bias and two is that every attempt at writing it down is colored by my own effort to say so eloquently. Our answer is not found in a perfect moment or a single Quest or a work of literature. Our answer can only be felt.
What does it feel like? It feels like an absence of expectations. Not an absence as if there is only emptiness left, but as if we’ve made no demands on the behavior of another. The ability to live that way will grow from a life lived without demands on you. Not a life without hopes, goals, aspirations, plans or dreams, no. A full life of all those things! But as well - a life without feelings of bitter disappointment when situations and people show up otherwise.
What someone does or does not do has nothing to do with how much they love you. What someone does or doesn’t is an announcement of how they are feeling about themselves at the moment.
You are the whole point. You can’t be the answers to anyone’s prayers, the only love of someone’s life or anyone’s savior. You can be the answer to your own prayers, the love of your own life and your personal savior. What this means is that once you let go of self-judgment and criteria for perfection – you are free to love without restriction.
This freedom comes with recognition of all of your parts. We spoke yesterday about uncovering the uncomfortable ones. Discomfort is part of life here in 3D; part of the contrast. It is a repeated unhappiness, one that feels all too familiar, that has stopped your liberation. That’s the discomfort referred to here. Why is it so hard to see what causes this “really not fun” emotion? It is hiding so well that it shows up without announcement or discussion. It’s like the color of your eyes, a part that looks that way every time you are reflected. Every time, no matter who is holding the mirror, your eyes look the same.
This reaction/feeling is not a permanent reflection. No, it is something you built years ago, as a child or young adult. It can be changed. If you want a better shot at self-love, it’ll have to be. It’s not a bad thing, it’s just not useful. When you built it, you were using all the information and ability you had at the time. You know more now.
So let’s say you recognize the cycle; the feeling is all too familiar and it feels “bad”. If you’ve listened to Esther Hicks, she talks about our Internal Emotional Guidance System as being our feelings. A bad feeling doesn’t mean something is wrong out there – it means something is wrong with how you FEEL inside about what’s out there. It’s all you, all the time.
Once recognition happens, congratulate yourself! You’ve found the culprit and drawn him/her out in the open. Now, just love. There is no rejection in Agape. Oneness includes every aspect, word, emotion and fractal we are.
This will not be easy. Old habits are hard to break and we humans have addictive personalities. It will be easier when you envision what’s waiting for you at the other side of this addiction: choice, fearless love and an open heart. Once you become the love of your life, the rest of us will join you. You’ll see. It’ll be amazing. We are the One’s we’ve been waiting for.
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This is a Love Quest. Ultimately we are trying to feel better. We’ve talked about what we need to leave behind, but not how. Here comes the tricky part. It may not be intuitive.
Step way back and look at the big picture. It includes the whole of what you are. Stepping into this new place is not difficult – it is different. You haven’t operated this way previously. You’ve been mesmerized by 3D YOU. This is the you that was born to the parents you have now; the you that has lived the life you know to be yours today.
The big picture refers to this life as well as every other fractal/lifetime. You may not remember the others consciously, but you can feel them. They are the parts of you who have been everyone and felt everything else. This new paradigm allows access to all of your parts. You are One.
As One, there is no “other”. None to blame. None to hurt. None to fail. None to disappoint. None to be afraid of. None to have expectations of. None to owe. All of these “others” can be left behind.
It is only with awareness of our totality that Oneness is possible. It is only without dependence that sovereignty is accessed. Awareness is what will transform every thought of lack, fear, blame, doubt or expectation. There is no pat answer.
You are striving for the ultimate – pure creation. This will grow out of an understanding that always, always you are taken care of and cherished, honored and respected. With each creation episode you are living the ultimate – life. It’s all life. There truly is no good or bad, here or anywhere. Only your attachment to pain makes it so.
There is no reason for it but experience. You have been looking for reasons for the pain. There are none. Those you’ve “blamed” for inflicting it upon you are searching for the same thing. We all are.
What will you do without blame? I can tell you this. The primary beneficiary of a blameless heart is you. Unconditional acceptance eventually leads to continuous gratitude. A day immersed in gratitude in gratitude is a very good day.
Feel good about yourself. You have come so very far and have felt so many things to get to this place today. There is no other who compares to you. You are the One you’ve been waiting for.
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It is 2015 and we are at complete choice now. No longer are we weighed down by habits of density and separation; we are entering a new paradigm. We can do so unencumbered by pain, loss, frustration and isolation. This is accomplished with awareness, recognition and determination. Our Quest begins today with recognition.
As with any search, you’ll have to dig through some stuff you would rather avoid. It may be old, unattractive, and uncomfortable, yet familiar. It most certainly does not bring joy. These are things you’ve accepted as part of life, of your life. They have morphed into parts of your self-definition.
They are not “good” parts as in “I’m a good piano player” or “I love animals”. No, these parts are more uncomfortable; yet just as familiar. “No one ever understands me.” “(Men) or (Women) always leave me and are not trustworthy.” “All relationships end in disappointment.” There are many versions. None of them are life enhancing. Each of them is a road block to Agape.
It’s not necessary to dig out why they exist. They do. It is time to look at them honestly and without rigidity. We are entering a new era and things are about to change. They don’t have to be a part of your make-up any longer. You can choose again. You can let them go. The energy is ripe for renewal.
Letting them go starts with finding them and seeing them without judgment. Not good or bad, but parts of you no longer interesting. They’ve served their purpose. At this point, you “get” what it feels like to be disappointed, angry, anxious, fearful or self-absorbed. Been there. Done that. Next.
What’s next is acceptance. A multi-dimensional eternal being has been and is every possibility. Life is continuous, current and happening now. Oneness includes not only every type of life form but each personality. Before we can unconditionally accept people from other countries, belief systems or planets, we must absorb every facet of who we are.
Rejection, denial, hatred and disappointment of any part of you or anyone else are conditional actions. We are One. Loving without judgment means that all of you is okay, worthy of honor and deserving of love.
When you discover, uncover and actually face the parts of you causing pain – do not hate them. Love them gently and hold them in your light. Say “I’m sorry for hating you so; you should have gotten a better deal.” Then say “I understand who you are, yet I am doing this now. Come with me.” Then watch as the parts you thought were just un-changeable parts of you, morph into something else. This is you, consciously chosen. This is you, loved in fullness.
You are here to do this. You have come now and are reading these words to “get” love without condition. Your ability to do this is not in question, nor is your desire. It will not feel easy or simple, but you did not come for that. You came for Agape. You are the One you’ve been waiting for.
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Your understanding is growing – from that of Initiate to that of Master. All emotions, feelings and especially reactions are mere reflections of you. What begins (Source) within, is that which you can trust as truth. There are some that/who could be called “triggers”.
What does a “trigger” do? Once pushed, it activates/initiates a force/propulsion/explosion so that whatever is concealed in the belly of the piece is immediately shot forth; no longer hidden.
What is hidden has been put there so that it is not seen by anyone. “Triggers” ruin everything. They expose our deepest parts before we decide to do so ourselves, often in uncomfortable ways that can feel fatal.
Once pushed, a “trigger’s” job is done. Unless of course, you have more that is concealed. If so, the trigger will propel what is hiding again and again, over and over until you notice.
This moment of Now does not need to feel fatal. Once noticed, that which is hidden can be brought out into the light of day gently; then gracefully danced with until your steps are in unison. This number was choreographed by a Master. The Master is you.
It is only through love that you will make this leap. Not blame or reporting wrongs or faults – but through seamless cooperation with all that emerges. Every moment offers an opportunity for collaboration now. Each interaction brings to the surface just one question/one choice – Love or Fear?
In the choice of fear there is a reticence, a resistance, a hanging on, a perceived debt or obligation, apology or payback. With love there is only an allowing – a “yes, and…” response that gives permission for the other to be; all the while considering how best to fill your shared moment with acceptance and with love.
This Now we are in transcends any we’ve experienced thus far. A deep emergence into your worldview brings you face to face with what you are here to incorporate.
This is not something other than you, but a part of you that’s been denied. “No-one gets left behind, or forgotten” applies here. Every inch of you is necessary, okay and part of the whole.
Illness, arguments and feelings of pain are symptoms of denial. There is no “other” you are arguing with or denying. You are One. Be grateful for each “other”, every “trigger” and all symptoms of illness or pain. They are like reminders of things forgotten; extra hands to help move you along. They were chosen by you, for you, and have arrived right on time. We are doing this together. We are One.
We are the One we’ve been waiting for.
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You are tapping into something universal. It is the essence of truth – the reality of your being. You are energetically receiving and emitting from your very organs what is true. The language of your heart is spoken everywhere.
Does it sound instead like static? Then what you are hearing/seeing is “BRAINTALK: CONTRAST: BRAINTALK: CONTRAST”. It shouts at you and you are becoming deaf to its cries… Your heart hears only love, and the brain, in control for so long, is now losing its dominant role as the organizing body part. The noise of the brain comes in super loud now because you have and are resonating with a different frequency these days; the frequency of the heart. It is via contrast that creation is initiated; it may help to remember that.
This time is one of unlimited expansion without a map. The limiting concepts of North, South, East, West, up, down, within and beyond do not serve as useful explanations. Without directions we’ve no choice but to heed the call of the heart.
In an effort to capture what that means, words feel limiting and limited. The challenge to express what has been called our “ultra-dimensional truth” is taken on here as an exercise in exploration. For truth is known rather than spoken or written. Names are separators and words are our training wheels, offering symbols for the language of the heart. They “speak” for the part of us that has not yet remembered, yet is on the verge of total recall.
Information floods in now and we cherry pick what resonates. We are on different individual paths. The choices made just “feel right”. This solitary collective journey has a guide for every intention. We are not alone. Blogs, podcasts, youtube channels, groups, classes and programs make sure we know it. There is no right or wrong.
As “time” now moves from one number to the next what emerges is a sort of awe at the singular enormity of what we are. It becomes clear that words do not exist that capture our inherent precious core. Terms like “eternal essence” and “agape” come close. Maybe.
The voice and desire in your heart and head now springs from this process of remembering all that you are. You are every component that exists. There are cellular memories, yes. They’ve been encoded with what we label “memory”. This, in the sense that they are things that have “happened” in the “past”. Yet time is a construct as we now understand it. So, when did this “happening” occur?
Always and all ways. Our understanding of life is about to be blown wide open without any limitation. We are beyond limits.
As we remember, this feeling of Oneness will leave us speechless. Not that expression won’t be necessary. Not that at all. Expression will instead be an active part of every beat of our heart. Translators will not be necessary. The heart speaks ONE language.
It speaks only love. From my heart to yours I wish you abundance in all that you desire and a gentle remembering of whom it is that you are, with all of your power and complete perfection. Raise your glass and celebrate you. You are the One you’ve been waiting for.
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Blessed, joyful New Year!