This is a journey into your very core. The answers are not found in sound bites, songs or twelve step programs. The resonation of truth will be felt privately and in unexpected moments. This will arrive unannounced. The trouble with writing here a description of it is twofold. One is that it springs from my own bias and two is that every attempt at writing it down is colored by my own effort to say so eloquently. Our answer is not found in a perfect moment or a single Quest or a work of literature. Our answer can only be felt.
What does it feel like? It feels like an absence of expectations. Not an absence as if there is only emptiness left, but as if we’ve made no demands on the behavior of another. The ability to live that way will grow from a life lived without demands on you. Not a life without hopes, goals, aspirations, plans or dreams, no. A full life of all those things! But as well - a life without feelings of bitter disappointment when situations and people show up otherwise.
What someone does or does not do has nothing to do with how much they love you. What someone does or doesn’t is an announcement of how they are feeling about themselves at the moment.
You are the whole point. You can’t be the answers to anyone’s prayers, the only love of someone’s life or anyone’s savior. You can be the answer to your own prayers, the love of your own life and your personal savior. What this means is that once you let go of self-judgment and criteria for perfection – you are free to love without restriction.
This freedom comes with recognition of all of your parts. We spoke yesterday about uncovering the uncomfortable ones. Discomfort is part of life here in 3D; part of the contrast. It is a repeated unhappiness, one that feels all too familiar, that has stopped your liberation. That’s the discomfort referred to here. Why is it so hard to see what causes this “really not fun” emotion? It is hiding so well that it shows up without announcement or discussion. It’s like the color of your eyes, a part that looks that way every time you are reflected. Every time, no matter who is holding the mirror, your eyes look the same.
This reaction/feeling is not a permanent reflection. No, it is something you built years ago, as a child or young adult. It can be changed. If you want a better shot at self-love, it’ll have to be. It’s not a bad thing, it’s just not useful. When you built it, you were using all the information and ability you had at the time. You know more now.
So let’s say you recognize the cycle; the feeling is all too familiar and it feels “bad”. If you’ve listened to Esther Hicks, she talks about our Internal Emotional Guidance System as being our feelings. A bad feeling doesn’t mean something is wrong out there – it means something is wrong with how you FEEL inside about what’s out there. It’s all you, all the time.
Once recognition happens, congratulate yourself! You’ve found the culprit and drawn him/her out in the open. Now, just love. There is no rejection in Agape. Oneness includes every aspect, word, emotion and fractal we are.
This will not be easy. Old habits are hard to break and we humans have addictive personalities. It will be easier when you envision what’s waiting for you at the other side of this addiction: choice, fearless love and an open heart. Once you become the love of your life, the rest of us will join you. You’ll see. It’ll be amazing. We are the One’s we’ve been waiting for.
See you tomorrow.
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